There have been many times I acted one way and felt another. The title of my life exists in just those words as a game without rules, only paths to find my Art in the Game I have been given. Life isn’t a game, where there are no rules, guidelines finding an exquisite form I have continually looked for.
I am a jester where my eyes looked in one direction and inside I felt cross eyed. In most of my life I acted as if I were rich, poor or whatever. I didn’t feel beautiful when I was. I was praying for riches, only while I was forgetting there are other kinds of rewards than money. I am privileged to know it now, when I didn’t really know of my gifts. I have talked to anyone who would engage. Stopping for a moment and welcoming their misery or their joy. Sometimes people would not always want my joy. I would love them anyway. I was the embodiment of Pollyanna playing the glad game.
Today I have discovered how I play just another inning in my own game of self discovery. How do I take care of myself and myself alone? Allowing others to provide me with gifts cultivated in skill. I am going to practice welcoming them with how they challenge me as our paths cross. Being as real as I can be. Even when they close their hearts to me. I no longer want to act one way and feel another. Help still required!!
